Run baby run , don't ever look back

My heart will never be the same

2012-02-14T08:09:00.000-08:00

B.L.E.S.S.E.D V.A.L.E.N.T.I.N.E.S D.A.Y ;)

SUPZXC!

Today was all right.

School was pretty tiring /: Kept on procrastinating over certain matters!:(

Seriously it's time to put a stop to everything.

Bused home with Alicia after slackslack!:)

Met Enola, Joseph, Venessa, Renee, Joanne, Claire and Daniel.

Had valentine dinner tgt at swenses@nex!

Recieve gifts and had a great time of fellowshiping :D

It was SOOOOOOOOOOO SWEEEEEET <3!

Bused home with Daniel after that :3

But like so wts!? Went over to the bus station and then a group of 5 boys shout my name!._.

Like lols! I don't even know you hello? -.-!

LAMEEEEEEEE!:)

Gonna sleep now!

CAMPPPPPPPP TMR!!!!!!

ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!:@

It's driving me nuts!

Remains in God's love

2012-02-13T02:18:00.000-08:00

Hey readers.
I'm currently SOOOOOOOOOOO BORED! Urgh!:(
My day was all right. Went to school and learn some freaking hard Amaths and Emaths sums!
Didn't paid much attention in class :X
Lunched at AMK hub mac with Razi, Rusydi, Amsyar and Hazwaine!
Saw Calver! Slackslack a while with him and his friend!:)
Home-sweet-home after that ;)

It's killing me

2012-02-10T22:48:00.000-08:00

The reason why I'm still persisting on living in this world although everything is killing me is because I still wants to tell you how much I likes you and how much things are hurting and affecting me badly after i lost you. Wait, I don't even have you on a whole to start with. Everything, our memories and the flashbacks is killing me every now and then. I kept falling apart. Being alone and lonely is something i detest but sadly it kept running back to me. I wish i could live happily without you, but it seemed oddly inevitable. Guess i just got no other options but to be strong.

I've waken up from all these shits

2012-02-09T01:43:00.000-08:00

Currently in Dion's house! :D SWEEEEEEEEEEEEET!
Camwhored with him a whole lots! Play and studied with him too :>
Made stupid videos just now :P lols!
Today was a fun day ;)
MIGHT post again later. (PROVIDED I'VE THE TIME.)

You will never be able to take that back

2012-02-06T22:05:00.000-08:00

When you left , you took everything with you. But the absence of you is everywhere I look. It's like a huge hole has been punched through my chest. Time passes. Every tick that goes by, aches, like the pulse of blood behind a bruise... But in a way I'm glad, the pain is my only reminder that you was real... I'm alright, until i'm alone. And lately, that's all the time. Friend's gone and so is you. And i just have nothing now.

I'm busy getting stronger

2012-02-06T03:08:00.000-08:00

School was pretty much boring today! lols! I kept on got scolded for singing TROLOLOLOLOLOL. During maths class, everybody was like very rude to Ms low especially Derek saying that why don't she just retired and stay at home instead of coming here to teach at this old age. HAHAHAHA. Derek don't have any utter respect for our pathetically math teacher you see? Went home after school and webcammys with Franklin and Joshua(friend!) AHHHHHHHHHHHHH. My day is soo bored and I'm feeling sleepy right now LOL.

The whole time i was fighting my tears

2012-02-05T06:36:00.000-08:00

I'm still sick... Currently having a very bad cough, feeling nauseous and etcs! Of all times, why this ?AHHHHHHHHHHHH. I need to concentrate on my studies! Man.. It's getting on my nerves ttm! - - Bloody ulcers! G-O-A-W-A-Y!:@ Feeling soo stress in studies.. *Destress session please?:(

Every now and then I'm falling apart. I'm so tired! Surprisingly I'm still hoping for a change even tho deep down, i know things between us are alr impossible. I just hate the fact I'm still hoping! From the start I should had know I'm just a fracking replacement of your girl. WOW... Why make all those promises when you know you cannot fulfil it? Do you even remember your promises right now? I doubt you do. Those promises and sweet-talking are just a part of your play to patronize me. Why am i so stoopid to believe you times and times again?!

Why did you do this to me? Why did you do this so easily? Why did you tear my heart apart? You said you loved me from the start. All the painful things you put me through, but I'm still loving you. I tried to give my best to you, I don't deserves the things you do, everything had gone to memory i just wished i knew the truth behind the lies.

Do you know our memories, which sadly now is some bad flashbacks are hurting me so deeply? Although I'm just a tool that you use to manipulate around but i swear i really did love you! Even if i can't swear... Why must you lied that you love me? Why must you make me fall so deeply in love with you alr then leave me alone? To face these shits? I remembered you once said you would protect me at all costs, i know it's another lie of yours but at that point i really take it for real you know?:(

Everyday i tell myself today I'm gonna be just a little bit stronger , to be happy without you but every time i end up back in negative square 1. What is it that is so hard that i can't move on? Why can't i conquered this fear? What's just so great abt you? I don't know! Fml ._. And a few days back, i peeked at the MSG my mom send you.. I was shocked! She's defaming me! Ohmyshit. I swear i didn't say that you rape me lahs! Is she found out herself as she controlled my fbk acc and hand phone.. Fml lahs!

I miss you so much!:( I alr lost the motivation that keeps me going, what's more to say? Nothing... Going to sleep with a broken heart, night peoples!

I'm a christian and I'm proud of that

2012-02-04T05:02:00.000-08:00

Hey!
Didn't went to school on friday due to high fever and etcs sickness, missed physics common test as a result but luckily got MC to cover! lols! Went to private clinic and the doctor said there's a high probablity i might have to undergo some throat surgery to remove the lump in my throat. Fml lahs! However before things get sort out, i would had to eat umpteen of medicines! and this facts suck ttm! - - Went to church at night :) The service, as usual was great! But the hall was so cold :( And i was sick okay! Fellowship a bit after church, went home after that. Today is a saturday, suppose to met Sharon and Venessa for bible study but because of my head was so heavy, i couldnt go! AHHHHHHHHHH! Currently rotting at home, talking to calver(xiaodidi) LOL! Soo bored!:(

Drifted apart

2012-02-02T03:58:00.001-08:00

Sup :D
Today was another ordinary day.... Woke up with slight fever , bad cough and irritating flu. Remembered i was feeling a little nauseous too! Urgh.. I hate being sick ttm!:@ Went to school anyway as i still had EMATHS paper to go. Forgotten to bring calculator :X Was thinking abt how I'm gonna flunk my paper until CHRISTIAN lend me his! Thks! Soooooo the paper was pretty easy! I'm passing for sure! LOL.

Got back mua social studies CT result , score: 18/25 !!!! Hard work do paid off alright. However , i didn't feel well the whole day in school.. And that bloody sucks.. Had some strange talks by apparently some 'beautiful (SELF-CLAIM)' lady. WOWWEE! Served detention with Alicia and Nelson. Had lunch with my dear girl! :) Went to hougang plaza for no apparent reasons :O Was talking to Joshua(friend) the whole journey. Homesweeeethome!
Last paper to goo tmrr and tht's physics , gtg and read my physics notes now. Bye!

Daear goodfriend , (Tht guy up there.)
Wht's with th sudden change in you? Where's th old you? It's gone? or It's you from th start?

We had sweet talks , we comfort each other when we were down. We talked on phone late at night talking abt absolutely nothing very much but yet we were contented just because we were talking to one another. We shared secrets , we trust one another. We hugged and hold hands tgt , we genuinely cared for each others happiness. We sing to one another , laugh tgt and play tgt. We h2h lovingly , you love me and i loved you.

But then you changed....

You no longer care abt the shits I'm going thru alone anymore. You ignored me and treat me like i'm just a 'mosquitoe' to you! :) Every of your words are filled with hurting sarcasm that sting my heart like whattheshit! When i talked to you abt it , trying my whole best to talk things out you won't even reply! In the past, whenever i feel merely a little sad you will be here to comfort me. But now? No! Lols! Every secrets i shared with you , you slipped it out to people like no body's business.

Will be praying hard for you that one day hopefully you'd be able to come back to the right track.

You are insecure , don't know what for

2012-02-01T02:55:00.000-08:00

Sup ;)

Amaths paper was soo difficult.... So many complicated and tough questions in tht paper! EWW. Hoping and praying my best tht I'll at least score a pass :X Today had been all right cept of the part when me and Alden was being called out to stand in front of the whole school during morning assembly cause we were playing and fooling around !!!! ♥ :P Hehehe. I dislike DAVIDGOH very much okay! Forever picking on me non-stop. Merely ain't clipping my fringe today , he say he wanna suspend me from going to class. Whatthshit! But luckily after common test , he returned me my phone and even allowed me to go back to class! I was praying to God abt it and God granted my prayer! God, you're simply just soo amazing :') Went home with Alicia after school ends! Meloveherttm !!!! ♥ Gtg as i still had Emaths to mug on right now. 2012 is soo different.. OMGG. The difference is that I'm such a good girl nowadays :X #FOREVER STUDYING. LOL, Bye :)

I'm telling myself i'll be okay

2012-01-31T01:44:00.000-08:00

Hey. This pic was taken like 7months ago ? :O LOL! Time seriously pass soo fast..

School was perfectly fine today , nothing EXTRAORDINARY happened nor unhappy things had happpen ... *Sleepyeyesrolling.* I'm so tireedd and stress from school work! Gonna study for Amath's common test now.. Studies's soooooo exhaustinggg /: But I'll hang on , for my OWN future ;)
Gtg , post again later. (DEPENDS.)

Your gonee

2012-01-31T00:25:00.000-08:00

Hey peoples !☺
I hadn't update this blog for months HUH. My bad..

School's started. (STRESSSS!)
Life's been kinda stress lately! Had to keep going! ;)

Our sweet memories had slowly transformed to flashbacks tht hurts. Lols! It's haunting me every now and then. I keep myself busy with the things I do, but everytime I pauses all I could ever think of is you. If we ever met again , I'm sure things will never be the same. It's hurting but still I'll keep everything deep down in my heart! ☺ I wish everything there at australia would be great for you. godbless!

Nights peoples!☺

Conviction

2011-11-07T04:49:00.000-08:00

Had a bible study with Aunty Carol && Aunty Serena today ~

That bible study really motivated me to become a better person . Look back at my life , felt so empty and rejected now i realizes why , it is because I had no GOD in my life . I BEEN LIVING WITHOUT A PURPOSE Now i know that purpose is GOD and I'll try to yearn and seek that purpose :D Been sinning so much and hurting God a hell lot. Sorry daddy ! :( I'll learn to place you the priority in my life and although temptations might starts to come in after i make this decision but i hope i would be strong to fight with Satan . I hate satan ! - - Heheheh! Loveyou daddy! <3
Amen.

I'm falling in love but its falling apart

2011-11-06T00:57:00.000-07:00

Dear heart , pls shut up. Thks!!

I'm really tired

2011-11-03T06:09:00.000-07:00

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAH. YES.

I'm fat so lets party yo

2011-11-02T04:14:00.000-07:00

Foreveralone.

You have no idea what your smile done to me

2011-10-31T10:56:00.000-07:00

Hadn't blog since a week ago? My bad. My health is deteriorating like seriously. High fever on Saturday. Thought I did recovered so stupidly me went for netball training today and guess what? After running for 5 rounds around Indoor Sport Hall and doing 5 sets of runs which every sets is like 6 times up and down, I vomited. Look, this is the consequences of 'acting smart' alright. Hadn't even finish training, I alr cabbed home. Awesome much? :O

If your my daily reader or you frequently visits my blog, you should had noticed that I changed the layout of my blog. I rates it 4/5 out of 5, me really likey it very much but of course it is not perfect. Nothing's ever perfect, you know? But somehow I still find something missing from my blog, just don't know what is it. Laughs. Had to go skul at 5 to collect results later on. Damn nervous kay! Cross finger and prays hard*
I'll update my results once I get hold of it! BYEBYEBYEBYEBYE :D

When you smile , I melt inside

2011-10-25T05:01:00.000-07:00

Hey.

Purposely went late to school today so I could skipped assembly, art paper today /: Last minute of art-work due to my absence in art class because there is a period of time I got suspended for close to 3 weeks soo I was told that I'm excused from the research thingy (y) However INSTEAD I was to draw something related to 'wonderland' theme, wow lahs! Hmm. So I drew something abt 'following your heart and making it right' and a huge image of a big heart with one girl and one boy inside. Cool? Soo not cool.......

Lunched with Christy and Botak. Cabbed home. Changed and met Alicia, Christy, Botak and Andy at Sk swimming complex. H2h with Christy and Alicia while swim, talked about A****r. Wts! After that , slack slack at sk area. Had some fun, while botak and andy KOF /: EWWW. Cabbed home after tht :)

There could never be a more beautiful you

2011-10-23T06:35:00.000-07:00

(More piccys on facebook.)

Sup.
Today was okay.
Started off with a f.cking bad hair day ! ): Went to church ~ Laughs . Soooo I am late for church. Gosh )): ! hehehe! I actually paid attention to the preacher :O As far as I could recalled , he was talking abt excellence in attitude and excelling blah blah. I was like could not be more than agree with what he said lah kays! I really wanna a change in my attitude and pursue for excellence ;) I wanna be more mature and not the past , Zoey , anymore. Lord , iloveyou.

Had lunched with Carol and Nadine at 198 :) Then went to cineleisure to shop! hehehe! Me bought many Cosmetic, a vintage bag and three tees. Omg! 225 dollars fly! But it's okay I got what i wanted graudually. hehehe. Shop shop shop until my legs went jelly lah /: Zomb. Went to eat Macdonald after that. Ohmygee! I'm getting fatter and fatter, no wait I'm already very fat from the first place so i reckon its okay :P Went home after that , tired max ! ): Webcam with Kaili Yun , me love her okay ??? ;)

Actually you have no idea what I'm going through

2011-10-22T09:47:00.000-07:00

Amazingly it's the second post today. Currently i felt damn lost , wht to do? I don't know if i can do this all alone. Please hold on to me baby, don't ever let me go , not even for a day! A part of me told me to trust you, to trust your words completely but the rest of the part told me somehow your words cannot be trusted. I really wanna trust you, I really wanna believe that you really loves me and so forth and that you would be with me after two years but what if everything was a lie? A fucking ridiculous nonsensical harsh lie.. It definitely is gonna hurt, surely it would stings, I know it would. Obviously? Are you taking me as a fucking replacement of her? I seriously hope that that is not the case to be so. Show me how to believe you can? I'm really falling in love with you every single day and right now I'm thinking that maybe i should stop?? Stop loving you? Maybe God is hinting me not to steal a girl's boy even as much as I loved him. I am so lost right now kays! I'm going to sleep with a broken heart , goodbye.......

Let's hook pinkes promising we love each other forever

2011-10-22T05:58:00.000-07:00

♥ Note to self ;

Hey Zoey... Can you stop exaggerate things up in your head? Like seriously stop it, your just self-destroying whatever your possessing right now you know? So yeah if I were you I would had stop ponder over stupid and untrue things but wait I'm myself right from the beinning, okay i remembered i was writing a note to myself gosh, my bad. You know he loves you, you can see and even feel it then why keeps on doubting it? Zoey look, your 'thinking' would seriously do things no good i mean not too good of a point you see? Hmm hence i urged you to stop thinking things negatively and instead start thinking on the bright side will you? Okay i had given you all i could say. I sincerely hope you would heed what i said alright? :)

Okay back to myself, I think its time i stop being so insecure and paranoid cause firstly it always ruin my mood secondly it is not good and lastly it can destroy me and his relationship so yes me no want to be paranoid and insecure anymore. Alright! :) Hahaha! Zoey is lame, so so lame. Zomb! :( hahaha okay till here, lovechu bloggie <3 Loveyou more babyboy ♥♥♥!!!!!

My emotions are all over the place

2011-10-21T05:55:00.000-07:00

Hai.
I am supposed to be at church right now but did not go since I just got home from Aarend's house, wait actually not just lah. Its roughly a hour ago, yea ikr. So Esther's mother drive me to skul today :) Thankyou! Hmm. Today's Home-mac paper was pretty cool, no kick lah :x!! Hahaha stupid me. Okay. Bitched with Justine and Alden before Chinese Oral. actually bitched about horny stuffs, Fug yeah eh! Chinese oral was awkward like seriously? I'm damn shy kay especially with my broken chinese. I keep say 'Maybe maybe maybe.' Wts ah, confirm fail ): ASDFGHJKL. Forget it.

After Chinese oral, Dionsayus pei me wait cab uh. KNNBCCB the cab damn long can?! But thanks Dion , for pei-ing me to wait :B. That what's friends are for right? ;D Cabbed down to Aarend's house and slack with him at his house. Ate KFC for lunch hahaha! Awesome much? But i saw something that kept on bothering me but nvm I'm not gonna say it anw. Its all in my heart :) Shut up heart kay, okay can. Cabbed home after that ^^! Currently chatting with Roslind Tan, she's a awesome girl.

Boy ,
You know what ? And I loved you more than ever , more than words can describe and more than you would ever know. I am sorry i kept on doubting your words , I promise i would try not to think so much and i would just trust your words okay but in return promise me you would stay faithful to me and not lie to me at all cost alrights ? I will do the same too. Please don't fall in love with someone elses anymore , please don't had someone waiting on you. I love you , really i do. I know by mere saying i love you would not do anything good but like what we always say , time might just prove everything right. You ever wondered why I'm always appeared to be insecure and paranoid ? Because i knew i cannot afford to lose you maybe because i loved you too much? I do not know but yes , don't ever leave me for good. I love you.

Keep your promises

2011-10-20T04:52:00.000-07:00

SUP!

Ton on phone with Aarend till 5 am in the morning ! <3 hehehe! Had a quick nap till 7 am. I was late for SCHOOOOL. ASDFGHJKL. Took Science paper staight away, fire it off like nobody's business. The MCQ's section is kinda still okay, but when it comes to Physic, Chemistry and Biology's section, it was really hard. KNNBCB but i still think I'm gonna pass! hehehe! Lunch with bindbyhatred at amk central. Nomnomnom :3 H2h with her as well, bused home right then and sleep like a pig when i got home!!! HAHAHA currently fbking and texting (; Aarend! Faster call me lah ): !!! Zoey is lameeeee ~ Kay I'm off , bye ;)

If i were a boy

2011-10-18T22:17:00.000-07:00

I feel sooo MOODLESS!

Aarend!
Everything was a lie from the start was it not? I didnt know me and arthur's thing will hurt you soo much! I really never hong you lurhs ! I said i'm sorry ! Okay forget it . I tried to convince myself to trust your words totally but i know i had to face the truth and the truth is gonna hurt me alot. The truth is from the start i been fooled with your ridiculous sayings but yet i still believed all your bullshita. I guess like what Alicia and Chirsty says, I'm very naive to trust you after all i do not know you very well, yet. So I only have myself to blame for this shit, yes it must be in that way. You said you loved me for that i had no doubt but like i mentioned to you many times already, how many girl are you loving actually? For this i allowed myself to wonder as far as i could, sigh. I know that i love you but let me just say i don't want to love you in no kind of ways, okay? No matter what, I'll wait for you, forever even it kills me to do so i would. 2 years is gonna be long, very long but who knows what will happens? I need to get rid of this shitty feeling i had right now, fuck off lah! fuck! fml! :(

byebyebyebyebyebye.

Better off alone

2011-10-15T06:26:00.001-07:00

Fuck! Happiness never lasts! Lost the motivation in life , idk wht to do lahs ! Fml fml fml! I want him to be happy even though I knew clearly that the happiness is not me, be happy my dear :) promise me will you? :) And in return I promise you, you will never see me again... I will stop bothering you, as much as I love you I knew I got to make the right choice and leave... You got a gf, I believe she loves you a lot. Dont let her down, love her, care her and understand her... Fml ._. I wanna die!!!!! (NOT)

I felt bless

2011-10-12T05:13:00.000-07:00

Hey!

Today was an awesome day uh! Slacks and heart2heart with Alden the whole while in school oh plus Fangqi , Charmaine and Maddy too. They are the reason why i know how to define words like true friends, so thks my true friends :) Awesome!

Cabbed down to Aarend's house straight after school! Broke liao ! :( But nvm, it's okay! So yeah , slackslack at his house. hehehe! Me = horny girl 97???!!! :( Pei him go buy fish after that. Its quite fierce :B but its nice :) Cabbed home after that. Meloveyou babyboyzxc! Ireallyloveyoukays! <3

So bored, I'm alone at home right now. Gonna study chinese now lah! Wo bu yao flunk wo de huawen test tmr, so yea. Bye :)

Don't hope , make it right

2011-10-11T03:48:00.000-07:00

Hi.
I felt BETTER. However I can't stop pondering. Kay forget about that lah /: He wanna hong jiu hong . Thinking too much just waste my effort soooo i'm not gonna think anymore! :D

So I met Ateeqah , Ashley and Raesmi in the morning, went to school tgt with them. I had a h2h talk with Ateeqah in the morning. Turned out that i was mistaken about her, I'm sorry, i knew you was just trying to care. I appreciate it lah, thanks! (': <3 Disturbed Justini during CCE2, pinched him on his stomach :x! Kay , i know that hurts but i didnt expect you to fell from the chair like uh seriously, blame it on you wasn't sitting properly then :x! Can't blame me totally >< Who called you disiao me? :3 hahaha! see lah, now kena internal suspension for dk 3 days ? Ask you don't gl Fiona liao, still gl. Must learn when is the right time lah boy. Wise up, dont screw things up. Meanie Ashleyy :(! Use poke to scare me until i broke my blue hairband :((((! hahaha, its alrights ((:

Apparently things isn't the same as before. You dont even care abt me le! whatever! - -

My heart is dead

2011-10-10T03:06:00.000-07:00

Hey!

I miss aarend ! I hate today alot alot alot lahs!! So i aint gonna elaborate much on it... Chatted with Weihern after school then walked to bubble tea shop and slacked with Chengwei, Junrong, Leon and Alicia.. Kept joking around and for a moment, i was happy. I was shocked, for a moment i forgotten about him and actually joke around but after that, things went back to normal. I felt emo again /: I even broke down uncontrollably on bus, xiasuey lahs can! Whatever la! I dont care anymore.....

I felt dead, my heart is dead.... As far as i know???
I knew i got to keep going, idk how... without him......
Me wanna die..... Everything should end right now, ain't it???

I guess I'm gonna delete him right from my heart...
Even if its hard, I'm going to get it thru...
I should block him on fb && msn, delete his number from my mind
and just stop contacting him......

but by doing so life would be so meaningless......
how??? Bad omen.....

Fuck my life......................................................

Impossible

2011-10-09T04:26:00.000-07:00

xxx
I felt so lost right now, sigh... Baby idk if you will ever see this, i definitely won't want you you to read this but if by fate, you had read this i just want you to know i really love you alot. I know action speaks louder than words, by mere saying i love you won't make anything right but mark my words, time might just prove everything right. You should wait and see, It will prove that I'm not lying to you in anyway..

So everything that happened this past 4 months seems so surreal, like everything was just a dream but deep down i knew everything was true and i had to admit i was glad, i was actually overjoyed. Initially i believed we were both playing each other feeling's, i mean hmm we were just using each other to mend that loneliness of ours but i can't believe that as we know each other better, i actually fell in love with you.. Perhaps it were a wrong move to do so? If that were the case. I might as well force myself to forget you? Idk, as i say I'm lost..

I know you love me.. but the thing is you could love so many girls at the same point of time, sigh... Maybe i should stop being so paranoid? And start to trust you totally lah! I really dk. I'm so scare of losing you.. Fuckmylife can? :/! I hate being in love -'-! fuck it manzxc. :( Gonna call Alden @ 8pm, I'm gonna cry everything out to him.. I just can't take it no more, faster 8pm la can? ): WIll post tomorrow kay that's for all, bai.

You'll be the prince and I'll be the princess

2011-10-09T00:20:00.000-07:00

Hai bloggie, I just came back from church, had lunch with Nadine just now. Right now imma so tired :( but i ain't sleeping anyway or not I might not be able to sleep at night later on, so God helped me not to fall asleep kay ><? hehehe. Kay i know I'm damn lame but yeah I'm FUCKING bored lah! ):

Sigh.. I kept on ponder about us, what should i do to keep us going? I never loved a person as much as i loved you and i hate myself for this seriously, I mean i don't hate myself for loving you lah but i really hate myself for putting you as priority in my life cause i love you till I'm so scare of losing you.. Fuck my life, I'm gonna cool down right now.

Maybe I'll post again later, it's up to my mood...

I will wait for you forever baby

2011-10-08T01:40:00.000-07:00

Sup.

Nomnomnom! As you can see i'm quite hyper right now :x! I feel like jumping and bouncing around like a ball since Aarend say I'm one cause I'm short and fat ! ): Fuck him :x! Hmm, i'm sorry for not blogging ytd >: I fell asleep at about 11 plusplus! I was just so tired! I will make it up by posting now okay? (:

So yesterday was a FUCKING fantastic day! Hehehe! Slack away in school with Alden, Alicia, Charmaine, Fangqi, Maddy, Justini and Nelson. We were having fun. It's just like those days in sec 1. I been missing it and now its all back <3! Thankeww God :D Cabbed down to Aarend's house after school, money fly T.T but all is worth lah! Slacked at his house till 4 plus then pei him go buy fish >< Cabbed home after that. I oly can remembered i was so tired ! :( Chatted with aarend till i fall asleep >< Awesome right? (; hahaha! Okay tata, thats all i supposed.

I'll post again later kay! I miss Aarend so much now....

I bet his still sleeping like a pig! okay till here luhs . bye :)

Your retarded but i like you

2011-10-06T07:39:00.000-07:00

Hey best friend <3! So this is the post i promised you, ah here you go.

Alden Tanjunhan (: I remembered the first time we met, something about you attracts me instantly. I don't mean attracts as in i liked you or whatever shit lah but attracts me as in i knew there was something different about you that is somehow gonna change my life. At first I hated you and you hated me then right? woohoo then how the fuck we become close and even best friends eh? ._.! nvm ah (: Since its over. I hate this year alot alot can? We drifted apart ): because of S* (idw mention names) sigh </3!

Sometimes you kinda needs to check your attitude, I'm not trying to say like mine is perfect or what but yeah. Please put yourself in people's shoes and think, they might not think the same way as you do. Reminiscing those times when we are in sec 1, omg you so cute can! hahaha. I know you could be very immature at times but you know there's time to be serious though? Sometimes your attitude really pisses me off but well i know mine pisses you off too. We should both change for the better kay (:

Omg :(! We might not be in the same class next year anymore :/ i less one person to bitch with but well i really hope we could still have that 50% of being tgt again since we shared common dreams. EOYE coming hor, you idiot better work hard especially your humanities area. If there's things you don't understand, ask wo lah! Don't need shy shy* kay idk what i talking either ><. hahaha! Gangster talking good words la sial! hehe, i lazy type alr lah :(

I love youzxc <3 :)

I'm yours

2011-10-06T03:48:00.000-07:00

Hey love, I'm here to blog, blog and blog kekeke. Okay. I'm lame, obviously I'm here to blog or not what? Come here see handsome hunks ah? No wayyy manzxc._.! My heart is only faithfully attached to one guy :) hahaha! Okay let's cut to the chase and let me faster finish with this post.

So yea today was a spaghetti day okay, hehehe! Ate individuals portions of spaghetti from Char, Qi , Nelson and Ruzaini. So full lah kay :/ it was so chessyyy ><! Nomnomnom. Heart2heart to Alden thru out the day and also slack with Sushi, Justini and Nelson. Stupid Justini and Nelson! One go poke my face another one kept on disiao wo :(! I pump both of your face and twist your balls then you know ah! Evil grins*! Went home straight after school as EstherPorter was driving me back home. Thanks baby <3! Till here, bye.

I'm sexy and i know it

2011-10-05T05:26:00.000-07:00

PEACE BABY ☮

Hai bloggie, today i went to school but was suspended simply because i got flared up and started to scold Mr (Idk what's his name, i couldn't be bothered anw) so i ended up sitting at detention center for the whole day. Sad lah :/! CB, teachers nowadays are just so fucking prejudice lo. Sigh! So i was with Weihern the whole day, time flies like real fast okay but i guessed i did shared some fun with him. Right ah hern? <: hehehe.

Chit chatted with Adrian and co after school, stupid Adrian poke wo de face. Fuck you lah hor, i blow air in your mouth ah :(! Bused down to buillion park and meet Arthur , Did something YOU AND YOU AND YOU shouldn't know. Felt damn fuck up, sigh! Forget it. Idw talk about it, bye.

I dont like this feeling within me right now

2011-10-04T07:01:00.000-07:00

Hey I'm back bloggie, currently heart2heart-ing with Xuanlin. Thanks for the advice sist! Hmm. I'll try to sort everything out sooner or later okay? hehehe. So yea, EOY exams is like reaching in about 8 more days ._.? Fuck it, i'm not prepared can :(! I guess i'm gonna flunk every of my exams paper this time, okay can. I better say goodluck to my fucking self first, sigh but me don't want fail lah! Later like a xiasuey meh. I think i better make full of this 8 days to revise for every subject, which mean in one day i would had to revise for one subject. I would start from tomorrow :x!!

Sigh... I miss you, where are you when i needed you the most? Baby please don't fall in love with someone else, please dont have someone waiting on you. I really love you a lot.. Can't you see? Fuck. Forget it, i dont think your gonna understand anw. If being with her makes you happy and since you LOVE her so much, i would back off so as you could be happier.. even if that would hurt me, so much. Fuck, im tearing as i'm typing this, I can't believe that i actually love you so much :/! Okay, i hope you won't see this post obviously. hahaha! okay I wanna revise Geography for a while, so yea I'm writing till here bye :).

I love green

2011-10-04T04:06:00.000-07:00

WARNING , DANGERS AHEAD !!!!

The following below are pictures that might make you feel 'greeny' and disgusted, i strongly suggests that you should not scroll down and view the pictures. Should you not listen to this warning thingy and go ahead viewing, it wouldnt be my problem if you feel like vomiting for the photos so hideous. Warning had been given so you only got yourselves to blame.

The color green is just so sophisticated ain't it? Especially lime green but this green is not too bad ah! Okay, green's been my favourite color since like the early start of the year? Previously before that, my favourite color was hot pink :3! I feel that it don't really suits me therefore i change my preferences for colors. Hmm okay, I know I'm fucking zilan but just so you know i was really bored so yea :/! Omg, i know i looked so ugly and cui down here but nvm i simply love the color meh! hehehe. okay! me want fbk alr, will post again later, soon.

Hopeless but still hoping

2011-10-03T21:44:00.000-07:00

I'm currently in YIOCHUKANG SECONDARY SCHOOL'S COMPUTER LAB lols! I'm asked to do a presentation upon my richtask but its funny how i ended up here huh. Okay! I decided that I'm not gonna do :P BECAUSE i find this very lame , i'm FUCKING lazy and i'm SOO MOODLESS right now. I'm always seems moodless without him eh? I guess i got to change after all he won't be mine forever, wait. He's not even mine ._.! Lols! okay fuck it. I'll post again when i reaches home later okay? Cool? lols!

Lost

2011-10-03T09:51:00.000-07:00

It is 4 October 2011 1256 am right now.

I'm all alone at home. Fml ._.! Just done catching up with Arthur, opps I guess we both talked about things we both wasn't supposed to talk bout but well who gives a damn right now? Obviously I don't for I'm feeling so anxious, this feeling is exactly the same like how I lost my handphone -.-!

Baby where are you? I'm damn worry alright! Sigh. Your last message was like to tell me your sick and hence your not meeting on tuesday? I mean I can understand that your sick all these lahs but why won't you picked my call up or at least be nice and reply my messages? Sigh! I'm damn worried about you alright! Call me asap, will you? Sigh! School's in about 5 more hours and yet I'm still not asleep :/ Omg lah, but I really just cannot sleep. Whenever I tried to close my eyes and rest, images of you and her immediately came across my mind. I couldn't help but ponder more and more then I'll start to cry uncontrollably. Wts can? Sigh. Sometimes I wondered if you really loved me like how you proclaimed you do cause the actions you do and the words you say is like differs alot. Right. I think now I should throw all my problems aside and go to sleep. Gonna give school a miss if you still continues to go MIA. Fmlfmlfml :D BYEEEEEEE

Imy

2011-10-03T08:02:00.000-07:00

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With love you love thats more than love

2011-08-23T02:32:00.000-07:00

Life is too short to be unhappy.